I should be studying...

Twas the night before finals and I was not studying.

Surprise, surprise. It's 7.5 hours till my final and I've not only spent the last 3 hours watching Netflix, I'm also not asleep yet. Rather, I've spent the night doing what I've been doing a lot lately, Googling all things Madagascar. Yep, if you haven't heard, I'm living in Madagascar for a year.

3 weeks ago, I flew to Chicago to interview for country placement through the Evangelical Lutheran Church in America's (ELCA) Young Adults in Global Mission program (YAGM). This weekend was so wonderful, yet so scary, yet such an emotional mix of everything all rolled up into one. We worshipped, we met cool people, we ate a lot, we learned about little corners of the globe we may or may not have known about prior, we laughed a lot, I definitely cried A LOT, we talked about race, colonialism and accompaniment, and (at the last possible second before leaving) received news that will most certainly change our lives.

I interviewed for two country placements: Cambodia and Madagascar. The prospect of each excited me in their own ways, and at the end of the weekend, when we were told to write down our preferences on a notecard, I actually wrote Cambodia as my first choice, though I also said that I would happily serve out God's call in either country. Needless to say, I didn't get it, but it felt good to know. To know that I at least would be somewhere for the next year, and to know that God placed me in Mada over Cambodia for a reason. 

I don't know what to expect from Mada. I don't know where I'll be living, what I'll be doing, who I'll be working with, or what the outcomes will be for me at the end of the year. To be completely honest, I'm scared. Like, really scared. What I do know is that this journey couldn't have been plotted by my own hands, is not a journey that I will do alone and is a journey that will be completely covered in grace.

I'm humbled to be at this point in my life, to serve a call from a place that's so much bigger than me, knowing that I'm a deeply flawed individual like all people and still, I can be used in ways that I can't even begin to imagine. Paul says it like this in his letter to the Galatians:

"I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20

I am so excited to embark on what will surely be a journey of a lifetime. You can follow along with it here. 

God's Peace,